[Originally posted 8.26.2012]
The sluggard craves and gets nothing,
but the desires of the diligent are fully satisfied. Proverbs 13:4
I weighed myself this morning. Thanks to yesterday’s last hurrah (you can add another coke, a plate full of nachos loaded with cheese, a Hershey’s bar and who knows what else to yesterday’s list), I now weigh the most I have ever weighed in my life: 260.5.
I know it’s only a number. I know it doesn’t mean anything except that I’m water logged from all the salt yesterday. I know the fact that I’ve crossed a new weight threshold isn’t significant.
Except it is. It’s significant because I’m still deciding if I’m really “all in” with this Ron Lyon’s Ultimate Body Studio fitness thing.
This morning, I read this:
He who is full loathes honey, but to the hungry even what is bitter tastes sweet. Proverbs 27:7
I wrote it down because I was thinking what a great thing for my kids, but really, it’s talking about me. When I’m full of all this unhealthy junk food, nothing tastes good and I’ve filled up all the available space with something that will just leave me feeling empty. But when I eat healthy foods, and refuse to eat anything that isn’t healthy, then I will begin to be satisfied with foods that currently taste bitter to me (like Kale. Ew.).
Anyway, I’ve got to get ready for church, and then tomorrow, school starts. So I probably won’t have much more time for reflection until after I workout tomorrow – and then I may be too tired!!! But I guess the thought that I’m going to keep in mind today is the Proverb about being wise in one’s own eyes. Yesterday I wrote down two Proverbs:
The sluggard is wiser in his own eyes than seven men who answer discreetly. Proverbs 26:16
Do you see a man wise in his own eyes? There is more hope for a fool than for him. Proverbs 26:12
If I’m going to do this, and do it successfully, I’ve got to change my attitude from one of pride to one of humility. I have to be willing to learn. I have to listen to criticism and instead of being offended, just take away what will I need from it. I’ve held this part of my life so close to me for so long, it literally has become a part of my inmost being. But what I weigh is NOT who I am – it is just a reflection of my lack of self-discipline and unhealthy relationship with food. That part of me can change without hurting the good part of who I am. In fact, that part of me changing can only improve the rest of me – if I approach this with humility and not pride.